Desires of My Heart

I thought I had to give up all my dreams to follow your plan God. But I was wrong, you want me to have dreams. That’s what that message was all about. “I have a dream” But that’s my problem right now. I gave up all my dreams and sit here empty handed. So God, here’s my dream. A lifelong dream, something I will hold onto for years to come. Not only do I dream of following after you and helping people into your kingdom. That’s obviously the top dream of mine. But Lord, you want me to have my own dream. My own personal dream. So Lord, here it is. I dream of writing books. Yes Lord that’s it. I dream of writing books and  reaching people….

Deciphering Dreams

The other day I had a dream, why I had this dream I don't know. I used to remember more about the dream, but since I never wrote it down it's somehow managed to vanish. All I remember now is that I was running. Running away from this guy that I "loved" I didn't want him to find me and I was trying my best to hide.

Spirits

This morning, after waking up at 6 (thinking it was Friday and I had school) I fell back asleep and entered the dream world once again. I don't remember anything about the dream but I do remember waking up with the words "NO! NO! NO! NO!" screaming in my head. I jolted awake practically rolling in fear. My eyes felt heavy, as if something was trying to drag me back to that nightmare, that evil dream. I fought the sleepiness as hard as I could, moving my eyes to try and wake me up more. As I moved my eyes about the room, I noticed that the room looked really dark and that there was a shadow in the corner opposite be. It was shifting unnaturally, this really freaked me out and I remembered all the "Rebuking" my Mom had been doing lately to try and "cleanse" her spirit and soul. Basically, rebuking demons and spirits. Thinking "what the heck" I tried it. I really don't like all this spirit "crap" that my Mom's been doing lately, it's annoying but I was desperate and was willing to take a stab at it. So I sat there, quietly whispering to myself, but loud enough for the spirits to "hear". I kept saying "I rebuke you, spirit of fear. No spirits will enter this room tonight, no spirits will enter me tonight. I'm a daughter of Christ. In the name of Jesus Christ I rebuke you spirit..." blah blah blah. After about a minute of that I was wide awake, like the sleepiness had been removed from my eyes and the room didn't look so dark and shadowy anymore. I then fell back asleep and slept peacefully the entire night.

Now, I don't know what to think.